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All I can continue to do is to try and make sense of my faith and my emotions. Looking at this photo of Ben I begin to make some more sense of my sadness. I understand that one of the subconscious reasons I continue to keep this blog open is the hope that a new photo will appear - one taken today of Ben - a little more reality. And so I dare to think of Ben now - so far away and adjust my thinking through the tradgey of another families loss - a young man full of life and daring killed on a 4 wheel motorbike - and then I see Ben talking to this young man and saying things that would totally convince this young man to choose to be with God and join him and be in God's presence. But you know I still cry...
One of my favorite photos of Ben is the one that constantly sits at the top of this blog - Ben on drums. It is so so real and I feel like it could have been taken yesterday. I smile at it, but it hits me hard too. Some days the yearning gets too much and I have such misbelief that he's really gone...surely he's not. There will always be a ben-shaped space in all our hearts that will not be filled until the day of glory. We all look forward to that day.
Precious! And then I remember his energy and intelligence, even as a little boy. I always wanted him in my class. Ah... miss you Ben.
ReplyDeleteThinking about you lots right now, Ben. Don't know why. This makes me think of family. Love you all.
ReplyDeletexoxoxo Jane, Sam & co
ReplyDeleteAll I can continue to do is to try and make sense of my faith and my emotions. Looking at this photo of Ben I begin to make some more sense of my sadness.
ReplyDeleteI understand that one of the subconscious reasons I continue to keep this blog open is the hope that a new photo will appear - one taken today of Ben - a little more reality.
And so I dare to think of Ben now - so far away and adjust my thinking through the tradgey of another families loss - a young man full of life and daring killed on a 4 wheel motorbike - and then I see Ben talking to this young man and saying things that would totally convince this young man to choose to be with God and join him and be in God's presence.
But you know I still cry...
One of my favorite photos of Ben is the one that constantly sits at the top of this blog - Ben on drums. It is so so real and I feel like it could have been taken yesterday. I smile at it, but it hits me hard too. Some days the yearning gets too much and I have such misbelief that he's really gone...surely he's not. There will always be a ben-shaped space in all our hearts that will not be filled until the day of glory. We all look forward to that day.
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